GB

5/11/10- GB

i just want to i just have to it's time to say.... fuck fuck fuck you.... and by fuck you i mean goodbye and by goodbye i mean fuck you and the things you do... i mean fuck me for letting you pretend i was what you were ready for... i mean fuck this heart and how much it loves even when it shouldn't... fuck my lonely nights that were had even when you were next to me... fuck my invisibility... and by fuck i mean goodbye... goodbye to tears shed over someone that only shed tears if they thought their reputation was at stake.... fuck you and your problems... fuck time wasted... fuck the consolation prize... fuck you in your post relationship lonely... fuck the way you treated me for years... fuck all the things i did alone... fuck the way you hurt me... fuck the way you loved me... fuck your new life and it's fucked up newness... fuck my heart for being stuck on you... fuck the break up songs that weren't worth it... fuck my too soon forgiveness for you... goodbye to our love... goodbye to the taste of you... the taste of your ass... of your cum... of your nipples... of your lips... the bad taste of your half-assed affection... goodbye to the way you ignored me when i was hurting.... goodbye to you hurting me and justifying it by blaming it on me...goodbye...goodbye and fuck off to these dreams that you invade... fuck off to the songs, the food, the movies, the places i know you'd like... fuck off to this big fucking heart and all it's nostalgia for shit that was always fleeting and unreliable... goodbye to this guy that was the wrong guy that helped make way for the next guy...i'll forgive you eventually... this world fucks up little boys but goodbye to the little boys that never grow up and fuck up other little boys just trying to be loved by someone in the world-- without condition-- without audition-- without you...goodbye goodbye good-fucking-bye already.